Rain

I am visiting my son and his wife. They ran to the store and the man is playing a video game. I am reading the popular book "twilight" It is so good I don't want to finish it just yet. I will have to stop at Walmart before going home and buy the other 2 books in the series.

It poured rain today. I took the dog on a walk while it was still lightly raining. It snowed for a brief while.I went into the sports park where there are 4 baseball fields and let the dog run. I will go do that again in just a few minutes. She gets restless.

I love walking in the rain. Forgot how much until today. The fall leaves cover the ground, the wind would blow every so often. So refreshing.

I love being here with my kid. My other son stayed home so he could be with his girlfriend - even though he says they are just friends. he drives 40 minutes one way just to see her and he does many times during the week - so I don't buy the "just friends" statement!

Well - off to walk the dog.

Gotta love Friday!

I took this picture this past week The sun was setting and I was on my way home from telling my favorite horse good -bye. It was fun to watch him. It was cold, the wind was blowing and all the horses were feisty. So fun to watch them run.

I am getting ready to do homework, then pack and clean as we are headed up to visit the oldest son and his wife.

I sure miss them. It will be good to be with them. It is suppose to be cold up there. Snow is in the forecast. Hope to get some good pictures.

My coffee, homework and computer seem to be my constant companions. BUT

My application for graduation was approved. I had to add an extra class into the last semester. It will make it a bit more stressful yet I would rather that than dragging it out and not graduating until the end of summer. SO..... my graduation date is April 14th. Finally a light at the end of the tunnel!

I am excited as then I can focus more on photography. I want to make my own frames and cut my own matting and start selling some of my photos.

Again - I am not an fantastic photographer but I have had many people ask to buy them so I will do it as a fun hobby - nothing to become rich at but it will be fun.

Will grab some breakfast and get busy. Forgot my friend is coming and we are going out to lunch so I had better get a wiggle on.

Misty Days

I visited a place the other day. In the wind I could hear sounds of old. My fathers laughter, my children's giggles and squeals of joy.
We lived in a canyon similar to this picture. My dad had come to visit. We had all gone on a walk. My kids in their camouflages and my dad in his shorts and much to my childrens joy, he also wore a dime store Indian headdress. He would whoop and holler as he chased the kids - the whole while his laughter rang through the wooded area.
When we got to the dam the icy water was tempting them to jump in. My dad took off his shirt and with an "Indian" yell jumped in. What fun the kids had with him.
I had taken our rabbit with us on the walk. We had him in a special harness. Dad took him in the water and sure enough that thing loved to swim. It was probably dads charm that kept him in the water. Silly thing.
As we left the sun was streaming through the aspens and it began to sprinkle. I took a picture and when developed it looked like crystals falling from the sky. Memories - love them and hate them all at once.

It is amazing how our journey through grief is such a lonely one - especially when most everyone around you has experienced the same thing. But it is ours alone to walk through, deciphering the pain or not carry what it means, feeling it or ignoring it, crying or laughing, repressing memories or embracing them - it is ours alone.

I was able to sit out in the open fields yesterday. The sun was warm, the air smelled like fall. Meadow larks were singing, there was even a hawk hunting. I sat in the field with two Percheron's. Sweet and gentle. They tower above me - even when I am standing. They would follow me everywhere and when I sat down they would graze right beside me. It was so quiet, so relaxing.

This spring I will be volunteering to monitor raptor nests (hawks, eagles, falcons, owls -etc) I am hoping to have about 30 nests to monitor. Will be perfect for getting pictures.

A new class started today - can you tell I am counting down the minutes?

Time for the office to close. Time to go home and do homework.

Tired Tuesday

Man - - - -
It was a rough day. I had a nurse go off on me. Then her manager and then her clinical educator.
I finally got them settled down after I backed my answer with CDC guidelines, Communicable disease book, a doctor, infection control nurse, AND my superior.
I love it when I am right! I hate to eat crow. I have had to before and it doesn't taste good! It was a stressful day. There are more of them now. It is okay. It teaches me patience and how to make the office an enjoyable place to be when stress abounds.
Sleepy - but still have homework to do...
I applied for graduation this week. I have 3 more classes left. CAN"T WAIT TO BE DONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
My lap top is driving me nuts! I had help with it today but it is not all the way fixed. Hopefully I can start downloading pictures again soon.
My youngest is going down to Vegas to a car show. He is going with 3 friends. One of them being his gal friend. Hope he doesn't come back married!

On the road again and dance

I actually got in my jeep and drove this weekend. I wasn't by myself not did I get to drive the whole way. But it is a start back to having a bit of freedom.

We had 3 inches of snow this weekend. It is gone now but it was pretty while it lasted.

I love this time of year. Fall is my favorite season. It is so nice to feel cold instead of hot. This summer was way to hot!

My one son seems to be getting back in the dating scene. He is dating a black girl from the city. He will be a good catch for someone.

My oldest seems to be happy - that is nice.

My step-mom will be up here for Thanksgiving. She does not want to celebrate so it will just be like any other week.

Some days the pain from the loss of my dad and father-in-law is so intense and then other days it isn't so bad.

The words from "hotel california" have been ringing in my head.. "some dance to remember some dance to forget." I figure I dance to forget. To forget some of my dreams - to forget what I want out of a relationship. I want a partner not a boss. Oh well - such is life.

On to better and more cheerful things. I got some beautiful pictures of the fall colors. Will post them when I get them downloaded. My laptop is screwed up again. LOVE FALL

Must get off the computer and do some homework.

Rose.... some dance to remember some dance to forget - time heals all wounds?