SLOW DOWN!!

my life seems to be spinning out of control and I am barely hanging on.

tasks at work keep piling up and staff is short due to various reasons.

stress abounds along with massive migraines.

my goal has been to eliminate any thing or person that I depend on during times like this. it is so hard but i am doing it. it hurts to be alone but in the long run it is better.

I guess i have not given up everything. laughter and photography contiune to keep me going. I was so upset i had to work today. there is snow in the mountains - along with the fall colors - I could have gotten some awesome photos.

I have scheduled a two hour massage for tomorrow. hopefully it will help decrease these headaches.

dynamis here at work are changing. my boss was arrested and so is now gone. october will be a month from hell. everyday something is scheduled including several trips to slc. plus i will have to keep up on my work - yikes

well i am just a downer today so i won't write much -

i just wish life could have been like i imagined it would be

I had one picture win...

a Honorable Mention ribbon at the fair.

It was the mules eye that showed the reflection of people in its iris.

Fun!

Photography 2

This picture was taken in Georgia - 2006

I can never decide which pictures to put out on the blog so I just randomly pick. I often pick the same ones. Oh well..

I entered some photos in a contest. Didn't win but it will be fun to see them displayed at the State Fair.

This semesters nursing class I am taking is an easy class. I am so thankful as last semester was so hard. I only do homework 3 nights a week and the rest of the time I don't even think about it.

I was offered a new job. Very ego boosting I must say. It was at corporate level. I would be in charge of all the specific departments(in order to be non specific I won't say which department) corporate wide. I really wanted the challenge but corp office is so far away and traveling to and from would be too much time away from home all week. It was declined after much thought and weighing different options.

Fall is here. My favorite season of the year. So nice to have the weather cooling down.

Grief process is weird. I was telling a friend that it would be nice if the custom to wear black for a year was still around. In this day and age we live in a very fast paced world. Everything is on super speed. I think it has become t he mindset that grieving should also be that way. Hurry and feel the pain, deal with it and move on.

A few days ago marked 7 months since dad died. The main part of his belongs have been given away or sold. The last to go (on the 4th which marked 7 months) was the motorhome. It was the symbolic piece of his and my stepmoms life. How difficult that was for her and all of us.

Laughter, photography and nature, like always have been my saving grace. Life has changed so much that I do not have too many close friends so share my pain with so I must be creative in my ways of expressing it.

Photography