A Visit and ramblings

Uncle D came for a visit this evening.

He is back from B for 6 months. There he deals with orphanges etc. Very close to the Lord. Twas a blessing to hear him talk.

He gave me a long hug before he left.
Afterwards I had to go into the other room where I wept. His hug felt so much like my dads. Weird what sets off grief.

It seems God is pulling away all of the things/people I lean on. For example when I couldn't have chocolate I would have carrots and now - in an instant carrots were taken away.

God must want me to just lean on Him.

My jeep had to have the new windshield fixed(turned out to actually be a blessing as I only had to pay 1/3 of the original cost). There were several leaks.
PLUS my cat is out.
New term I learned - means catalytic converter.
In order that the trip this weekend didn't have to be put off I had to let Rocky spend the night at the garage. They will work on him tomorrow. "My" mechanic thinks it might not be the cat but different parts that have become loose. Hope so -that would be cheaper. I call him "my" mechanic because he has been seeing my vehicle a bit too much lately. If I am going to ride the jeep hard I need to learn a bit of auto mechanics.

I missed my Depression Recovery meeting this week - I was too depressed to go LOL oh well tis the truth.

Here is the list of what I am to be doing each day:
Read a chpt of Proverbs
Listen to classical music
Use the blue light or real sunshine 10 mins after waking up - use for at least 1/2 hour
Drink 8 glasses of water
Exercise 1/2 - 1 hour 7 days a week
No critizing comments decrease negative thoughts
Reading the assigned material
Taking hot/cold showers
Can't remember the rest.

So here is what I did yesterday - got up - went to work - got my coffee - dealt with issues - ate poorly - drank diet coke - came home - tired -so I took a nap - watched a movie and ate a very late dinner. OH brother - no wonder I am depressed,

No exercise - no eating right, no time with the Lord, no energy, and negative thinking.

Today - followed the same pattern until I got home - there it changed.
I exercised, had time with the Lord, and a hot/cold shower. Feel better and am not thinking so negatively.

Wow - you mean I did something right (can't say that that is a negative statement LOL)?

I don't work tomorrow - so I will try and do each of the listed things.