Tis Spring -

Another beautiful spring day. Love it.

Everything is new, virgin green, new buds are springing forth, colors are appearing in the form of daffodils, etc.

I need it to be spring in my heart. I need a new heart. One that is filled with only the love that is supplied by God. I would love to have the innocence of a child, a "virgin" mind of sorts.

I think one reason that we age is because of all the knowledge of evil we have. We are aware of the hurts, pain, suffering, sorrow, war, hatred etc. Our mind can only be refreshed in the newness of spring when we let God wash our hearts clean of hurt, anger, resentment, furry. Only He can soften it enough to let us put self aside and see the needs of others without resenting the change it will require us to make.

I know I am not there yet. But I want to have God be Lord of my life and that includes being obediant to His word, to the extent of submission to change whatever he requires me to.

I read Galatians 2:21 - Grace.

The study then points to the story in 2nd Samuel 9. Here are a few points that I learned from the study provided.

Mephibosheth - his name means "living in shame"

David sent for Mep to show him kindness - God knows we are living in shame and wants to come and get us and show us his kindness, His grace, His mercy.

Mephibosheth - living in a place called Lodebar which means "Nothingness"

David sent for Mep so he could live with him -God sent His son to redeem us and to "fetch" us out of our nothingness.

Mep - lame because of a fall

We are lame because of our fall into sin, we can not walk upright because of the burden of our past sins. We are opressed with the weight and heaviness of it all.

I am living in shame and I am in a place of nothingness. I am lame in spirit, and in mind. Today if I focus on self I see nothingness, I am nothingness.

I need to focus on God and see who I am through Him. I am worth enough that He died for me, I am worth enough that He sends the Holy Spirit to change my hard heart into one full of compassion. I am worth enough to live in the Kings house.